new relationship

i m deeply attach to a new relationship
that is my job...

work 7 days a week...
trying to earn more money...
and experience...
i'm working hard for my future..
want a better future
don't want to depending on other people...
be independent..
spend what i'm able to earn

its was nothing like this at my previous relationship
he let me spend money...
buy what i want...
shopping anytime...
if i'm not happy not going to work...

cant being like this anymore...
i'm adult...
i felt sorry...
spend his money like that
regret so much...
now...i work sooo hard
my qualification are low
diploma only
i cant get good pay when i work
so..have to gain experience...

but the working...
are quite troublesome...
i have transport problem...
two cars for four people...
sometimes is one car for three of us
me, my sis n my dad.
my gf...she's already paying his car loan
which she's same age as me
i feel ashamed...
for not able to buy a car...
the transport problem are quite serious..
and i m not able to solve it.


i don't have transport to work
the ways of solving it...
for temporary
is my sis become driver...
she drop me to work fetch me back
another problem occur again
i don't have transport to lunch
but its good also...
1pm to 2pm
the weather are damn hot
don't wan to be dark
so...i ask my colleague to take away for me...

i spend most of my time working...
at assignment
and thinking idea...
n yet still mock by friends
they assume that i end up my previous relationship
now i'm very busy with the new relationship
very enjoy...

wish i have time for that also..
my current..
he also wish..
i m working every weekend...
he did came to find me most of the weekend...
trying to help..
be my driver...make sure i eat breakfast and lunch..
he waste his time and money came to help...
i appreciate that a lot
but still i don't have time accompany him
felt sorry for him...

wish to tell my gfs...
i m deeply attach to a new relationship
that is my job...
not him

i'm very exhausted with those workload...
sometimes...the mocking really hurt...
my ways of handling relationship
are messy...

i learned the lesson.