it is

the thing i care most is.

u care.
that's what matter

dry dry dry!!!!

dry~!!!!
my throat...
extremely dry...
sickness haven recover at all...
take MC today...
rest at home...
eat med n sleep...
wake up do assignment..

make me wanna scream!!
but voiceless..
i wan holiday~!!
i wan vacation!
i wan shopping!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bf n bff

第一次见面看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个像夏天一个像秋天
却总能把冬天变成了春天
你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的锻炼
遇见一个人然后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节
如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句
如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的弦外之音我的有口无心
我离不开darling更离不开你


this song
i love it..
is for some one...
that i care

swallowed word...

i do this often...
swallowing my word...

sometimes...
people just say out their word
directly...
comment on something...
judging..

i don't like that

being mock by friend few days ago...
i just say yes...
admit its my fault...
yes...
it is my fault...
since it was my fault i won't defense...
any word...
i'll just swallow it..
maybe laugh to cover up..
they might think i m not mature...
but i do know what i m doing..

also i hate the word 'i told u so'...
i understand when a person learn the lesson
when u say this phrase
it will be more hurt
its like already get punishment
still u want to throw a big rock


a friend...judging about my previous relationship
uses him as atm...
yes...its my fault...
it might just her thought n she split it to me..
i get her point, she's lecturing me
she care so she say it.

i learned the lesson already...
be independent
n still my close friend don't see
that i'm working hard on changing this condition
its quite disappointing...


i hope she could at least see
people's facing different condition
act differently
as well as the consequences..
example..
she got a gift from a friend
its very expensive
and she accept it

but i know she wanted it so badly...
understand this...so i wont judge
wont say a word about it

hope they could think as my point of view...
even though they don't understand
they are still bff...
i care about what they say
meant it or not...

a friend told me the world are not only about me...
agree...
in this universe
i m just a teeny tiny living things...
try to think more for others...
life is short...

learning to be happy go lucky...

hatyai

the hatyai trip...
not really sure its working or not...
unconfirmed time schedule of 4 of us...
also..haven get reply from supervisor on the weekend job...
time might clash at weekend..
if got project i'll work n give up the trip

don't have extra money to go trip...

last week lunch
a gf ask me about it...
still don't know
she's also broke...
me also...
but she's still able to go...
hope i can make it also..

need to get some trip to enjoy
wanna run away from those work...
but...no money to go on...
sigh....

will on debt to go...if the plan's working
wan buy a lot of stuff over there...
a lots of beauty product
n clothes
haven doing any shopping lately...

my yoko salt milk spa and za whitening powder has finish...
these are product from whitening...
wan to be more fair sooo badly...
hatyai sell it quite cheap~~

wt...!

Please help

by Weiting Tan on Thursday, September 2, 2010 at 7:07pm

All my dear friends, kindly help me to share this in your facebook page. Just need a click, thank you.On Sunday (29/08/10), 8.45pm, my father went out for a walk and he met with an accident at Bandar Mahkota, Kajang, Kuala Lumpur. He was knock down by 2 cars when he tried to cross the road. We belive that 2 cars was spee...ding and they hit and run but no one saw their number plate. My father's head injured, lung damage and both of the legs broken. My father didn't die on the spot because someone saw him still struggling for a few minutes. After the incident, there are kind people report to police, but police not able to contact us because my father did not bring his Identity card with him. During the accident, most of us was outstation, when we realize the incident, it's already Tuesday and it make my father lay in the froze morgue for three days.

All this happen too sudden, too unfair to my father. Hope you all can ...help me spread out this message so that those who saw the incident will come forward, and also let the driver know that you killed my father and we've lost our father.

我所有的亲爱的朋友，请帮我在贵面子书分享这一页。只需要一个点击，谢谢你。

就 在星期日（29/08/2010），晚上8点45分，我的父亲 Chongseng Tan 出去散步时就在Bandar Mahkota，加影，吉隆坡，遇上了车祸，就当他越过马路时却被两辆汽车撞倒了。我们深信当时的那两辆汽车正在赛跑，他们撞了就逃但是却没人看到他们的 车牌号码。我爸爸头破，肺破，双脚骨折。他没有当场死亡，因为有人看到他挣扎了几分钟。事发后，有好心人士报警，但是警察没办法联络我们，因为我父亲没把 身份证带在身上。事发当时，我们都在外坡，当我们报警时已经是星期二了。我父亲就这样在冷冻的太平间躺了三天。这痛对我们来讲都来得太突然，对我父亲太不 公平了。希望大家可以在这里可以帮帮我，把这段消息传...出去，让有看到事发的人可以站出来，也让肇事司机知道，你们害死了我的爸爸，让我妈妈少了一个 依靠，让我们兄弟姐妹没了爸爸，让这个家没了一家之主。

http://www.facebook.com/notes/weiting-tan/please-help/104929016235363


wt....f!?
what on earth is going on?
the world are sick...
even the people also...
HIT n RUN
this is terrible!
those people are irresponsible!
u guys kill a living person for speeding!
took away an innocent people life

my gf told me a senior of us...
she met this incident...
please help her to post it

hope they catch the driver asap!

argument

its bugging me a lot...
since the argument..

don't know to how text
what to text...
don't want to bother since u're having exam

good luck...
in your exam...

new relationship

i m deeply attach to a new relationship
that is my job...

work 7 days a week...
trying to earn more money...
and experience...
i'm working hard for my future..
want a better future
don't want to depending on other people...
be independent..
spend what i'm able to earn

its was nothing like this at my previous relationship
he let me spend money...
buy what i want...
shopping anytime...
if i'm not happy not going to work...

cant being like this anymore...
i'm adult...
i felt sorry...
spend his money like that
regret so much...
now...i work sooo hard
my qualification are low
diploma only
i cant get good pay when i work
so..have to gain experience...

but the working...
are quite troublesome...
i have transport problem...
two cars for four people...
sometimes is one car for three of us
me, my sis n my dad.
my gf...she's already paying his car loan
which she's same age as me
i feel ashamed...
for not able to buy a car...
the transport problem are quite serious..
and i m not able to solve it.


i don't have transport to work
the ways of solving it...
for temporary
is my sis become driver...
she drop me to work fetch me back
another problem occur again
i don't have transport to lunch
but its good also...
1pm to 2pm
the weather are damn hot
don't wan to be dark
so...i ask my colleague to take away for me...

i spend most of my time working...
at assignment
and thinking idea...
n yet still mock by friends
they assume that i end up my previous relationship
now i'm very busy with the new relationship
very enjoy...

wish i have time for that also..
my current..
he also wish..
i m working every weekend...
he did came to find me most of the weekend...
trying to help..
be my driver...make sure i eat breakfast and lunch..
he waste his time and money came to help...
i appreciate that a lot
but still i don't have time accompany him
felt sorry for him...

wish to tell my gfs...
i m deeply attach to a new relationship
that is my job...
not him

i'm very exhausted with those workload...
sometimes...the mocking really hurt...
my ways of handling relationship
are messy...

i learned the lesson.

system crash...

system crash
MY system crash

i m very sick...
flu...sore throat....fever....and diarrhea


last Saturday there;s no project for me as promoter...
i could finally go to class...
i've been skipping class since i work
anyway, those class are not important..
just check up on our final project exam...
Sunday i have to buffer people at simpang ampat's mini market...
its was far....T_T
not sure it's even a MINI market...
its big...n have two floor..
really boring over there...

the other job of mine...
GRAPHIC DESIGNER
my dear boss....he gave me some artwork
to bring back home...
OT at home..
my boss are trying to kill me...
with excessive workload
gosh...i cant even enjoy a weekend...
n most important
those job are INTERIOR design..
it's out of my work range...
but i still do for him
wanna polish my skills....
n gain some experience
boss trying to save his money
if he pay interior designer freelance at outside...
it will be rm 100-rm200+ per one
its one interior design of a shop lot
the layout inside is 11...
n all this are count as one artwork...
microwave...vacuum cleaner...washing machine...etc etc

start from Saturday
work from 6.30pm till 1am
only finish half of it...
n...i have no appetite that day...
at last...gastric came to me..
the next day before i go work as promoter i finish two of it...
and finally after the promoter job job done...
came back work till 3am...

my body did warn me before...
the nose bleed...
n finally my system crash...
today i wish to take MC....but my work
have to submit to boss..
i went to work....want to take half day leave....but no transport to go back
T_T
its was terrible...
when u're damn sick...
still have to be other place then the bed...
luckily...
at last my sis found a friend to fetch me...
million thanks to him~~!!!

the illness din got better...
but i still have many things to complete
apart of my job....
there are still assignment ..
time is ticking...
dont wanna delay my graduation

its been almost two month i take 3 job
its takes two month my body finally crash...

update

i m back to blogging again...
is the way that could let me express release stress

if compare to facebook...
i prefer here...
more privacy
no one judging...


facebook...
can connect everyone
u know...u're friend with
but no privacy

sometimes...
u just add those people because u know them
not even close...
but they have access to ur life...
wats happening..
i dont like the feeling...

just found myself a corner at here...
its my space
my own space...personal..




i m really really exhausted...
n...here come the fifth bleeding...
guess i wont live so long after all...

graduate

graduate...
can i make it?
seriously
i wish i can
but it seems like impossible
next tue to fri will be my final exam...
before we can enter the exam...
need to complete
the final report...
n 3d animation...
this two is already enough to kill us...

i want to graduate...

will get diploma...
to be honest...
i m quite ashamed...
all my secondary schoolmates...
all seems have great education or career
go overseas...
not to compare v them
just....blaming myself...
not working hard enough to get a better future..

me?
after study form 6
i din work hard enough to get to uni
just diploma..

well...i still have to move on...
'life is to enjoy~'
yes..i know how to write or say this sentence
but i m so not an optimistic character
trying to be one..

we should be happy with what we have just now

ALARM!

my body...is ringing alarm
yesterday n today...i have 4 times of nose bleeding...
guess....i m too overworked...

yesterday it was lil bit...
dont really care abt it...
today...at office..
the bleeding....is a lot...
this is the 1st time i have so many blood of nose bleeding..
i m shock...

its a sign warning me... i should get some rest
yes i will...
but...for now...
my work place there...a lot of job to do
n for my study..
got an insane 60 page report need to complete...
n also a short animation using 3d...
i m dying....drowning by all this annoying stuff
just wish i could really get over all this n get a vacation
really hope i could make it..

i wish to quit the job at October...
i need some rest...some trip...
something to enjoy...
but right now...i have to save money
until then i can enjoy...

at this moment...
just a few second before i write this...
my 4th nose bleed again...
i sneeze n...blood came out...
its a bloody day...