down

extremely down at the moment...
i cant do my job well..
my boss have high expectation to me...
n so do i..
i felt disappointed when i cant reach what i wanna achieve..
i m trying
fresh graduate and i m handling so many project on hand
n my heart recently are no longer here...
feel that maybe i should try other place...
polish my skills well before i handle anything
i m lack of experience...


have a small chat with my GTO (my lecturer who look like japan AV male actor) today
told him that i feel like quitting...
he asked i just work for fun then wait marry no need worry
left my husband to worry
replied him..
i wanna use my own money
what i earn
buy car
buy house...
with my own ability

that is my target...
car
house
trip

i m working as hard as i can to get it

the problem is...

i m not happy at all right now...

feeling pressure all the time

going to crazy soon...