abandon. trash?

i care. i do care
but who knows?

maybe the way i act...
is so wrong.

but in my heart in my mind
i care.

trip

trip
a trip could really help
with my current condition
run away from all those busyness
to release my pressure
go relax
have fun with gfs

going on a trip is not just simple yes or no

there's
work issue
money issue
time issue

right now...a trip could certainly helped
yes! i would love to go enjoy

but all those issue are bugging me
since
this month i already apply too many leave
3 days for trial exam
1 day for teeth treatment
1 day for graduation photo shooting
1 day for graduation video recording
and also 2 days for kl

next month i'll have to apply 3 days leave
for final government exam

my boss wouldn't be happy with all this
i plan to gain experience in 3 month
be well performance
but its seems like impossible
with those leave record.


the time issue
if all of us can make it
i would love to join


those issue i m trying to fix it
i rather these issue bugging me than sharing it

its so hard to fix the time since start working
but i m willingly to try fix it...


eventually...all this seems so out of my control

thank you

this post suppose to be written at may
but i drag until now..

ending the relationship
make me wan to say dis...

its for someone...
that i really appreciate..

thank you

you're really a nice guy
i wish u could be happy
ur life will be more sparkling in future..

me

me...
i m sucks in expressing feeling...
facing everyone
friends....or family...

sometimes...
its would be better just keep it
to myself...
but...
seems like those misunderstanding will occur.

my life.

recently my life is a mess

its been a long long time i din update my blog.
yea...i m freaking busy

as briefly

i end up a 4 years relationship
n start a new one

the relationship stuff is just a mess
i admit....i make a huge mistake
n also my ways of handling it...are sucks.


by ending the previous relationship
i force myself...to become independent
taking 3 jobs
mon to sat work as graphic designer
sat n sun working as promoter
at night i m teaching tuition

the graphic designer job enable me to gain experience
n the pay are quite reasonable..for freshmen like me

working hard for money
since i m already an adult
its a shame if i ask money from parents...
they work so hard for the family..
so...i earn n spend.

working hard to save as much money i can
i plan to go UK
the expenses there are high

people don't get stuff for granted
if u want something u have to earn it.
i m trying...very hard
to earn what i wan

but all these job...maybe killing me...
its very burden

n furthermore...
i haven graduate...
the final project...3d assignment...exam...
also killing me.

its been busy life for me...
i have no time for entertainment.
very tired after work
even though back from work i have assignment to do...

its really exhausted....

merdeka...

yes....its merdeka day...
n i m only staying at home
celebrating merdeka

as for last few year
my merdeka eve are quite special..

there's one year i spend time at autocity Mcd
hearing out our macro economy teacher, her beloved son..
trying to pursue us to join the direct sales stuff...
its was a nightmare
since then i really anti direct sales...
that guy have dragging our time...if i m not mistake...its was...
around 11 something night until 4am next day...
after he finish the long speech...we realize...merdeka merdeka~

also there another year...
hanging out v cc n jean...
shouting merdeka in car..
we were so young at that time

n another year i couldn't forget
i m going clubbing with yy n ys
n something terrible happen
kinda too overplay at clubbing
i done some mistake
its was a bad memory for me..

n...for dis year merdeka eve..
celebrating at home...
msn....n assignment
n also an argument

today i'll just be sticking around at home...
have to rush my final project
n with a bunch of feeling
repeating the argument
wake up early in the morning,
couldn't sleep even though its a day off for me


happy merdeka....